 | oops | Oct 29, '09 2:03 PM
for everyone |
DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.... i just tripped and fell down right in front of my dad. how cute. hahahah
It has been quite a challenge for a person who loves challenge recently.Juggling between not just studies and dance concert preparation but also internship!!
For the first time, every hour it's about working or travelling. It's darn packed but i've been telling myself just 3 things "stay strong! stay positive! ENJOY WHAT YOU ARE DOING!" *smiles*
While you are trying your best to stay mentally fit for what's coming along/ should be happening, it's really very DUUUUUH to know that you have rubbish things to worry!!?
I called it rubbish not because it is rubbish. It's just things that come at the wrong time!!
Firstly, i don't think in any way im not caring the club as little as anybody else since years ago... WITH MY HEART!
Secondly, i really thought i'm a pretty good friend, but it turns out that i'm quite a loser from what you think of me. It sucks honestly.
I don't think in this world you can find a genuine friend unless you have the thing call TIME? What a stuggle, i've got to sometimes agree to that, and sometimes i didnt want to.
You may thought that you have been protective and caring, fending up for him/her, put in 100% for him/her, but so long you don't have the TIME when he/she needs you JUST NICE when you wasnt around, repeatitively, you lose out. No matter how much you put in, it's just equals to zero! WTH!?
No matter how SINCERE im trying to squeeze out time, finding at least a lunch break for him/her...or even attend anybody's performance BECAUSE I CARE & LOVE, when i can use the time to settle my concert stuffs, you DONT SEEMS to think about it when you start to think how 'imperfect' i am....
That's how perfectly fake it is to follow.
I'm trying my best in every single thing im doing even for you, you, YOU AND BLOODY YOU!
Tell me what else do i have to offer? at least NOW!!? KNS.LET ME TELL YOU... im perfectly DRIED UP! sucked dried ok. So don't asked for more or i will scream!
RROOAAR!
hahaha having band practise with my brand mates now. They are playing random guitar notes in front of me now, and i'm multi-tasking by blogging and ALSO randomly filling in melody hahaah. DAMN FUN. as if you are making songs of your own with them. i think that's damn cool.
Anyway i just played bejeweled on facebook... OMG. cant believe i improved SOOO MUCH!!? you go girl! going to meet ah jan for meal.CIAO.
WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! AAHHHAAAAA!!!! long time never so high so happy, so satisfied, so unbelievable! waaa lauuu eh!I haaaa feel kinda like back to my old happy times! THANKS KHALID, WAN PENG, SDZ FAMILY(esp elisha, uncle, xiang, vince, weisheng, lulu, zaahid and all juniors!), MY ENOKI FAMILY, DMC DOPE PPEPS and all u know!Joined the group category this year for CASS TALENTIME, thinking that having someone to fight with me with all those projects and singing, like comrades! 5 days before the compeititon, wanpeng and I still had not even decide what songs to sing. Followed by her losing her voice like TOTALLY. ooh no. keep calm lum! But even during the actual day, her voice still sounds like sotong hahaha so she suggested not to join, cos she dun want to under perform, which is totally understandable man. If it's me, i will too loor We had khalid to play guitar for us, which was a funny combi. NEVER in life talked to khalid more than one sentence! But really had fun with him cos once he is high, he sucks man. HA. the organiser told me i can replace the wanpeng name with guitarist name But the overall thing is after the performance i was disqualified cos the guitarist didnt sing. CANNOT BLAME HIM OK. i didnt request him to sing anyway. he felt guilty lo my god! so worrying haaaa THO i'm disqualified and pple around me felt that it's a pity but.. i GAIN MORE THAN I LOST! ahahaha you must thinking that im trying to console myself right! Let me brag about what happen! HAHAHAHAHH *evil laughter* - Forgot lyrics at the start, hum my way through with alien language that makes the judge goes *frown* [hahaha! I SAW IT!]
- Picked myself UP and enjoy cos i recall how last year i got first and i tell myself, i will NEVER leave vanda room with a word REGRET! :DDDD
- WA LAU EH CANT STOP. damn high on stage
i think i do justice for myself! HAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH nah. what's the point of being humble when sometimes, you need to give urself a pad! *hee hee hee* 4. THEN HORRR!! EVEN THE JUDGE come down and ask me why i never join the solo category! HHAHAHAH im flying~~ woooooo~ 5. Got one auntie sitting in front of me turn back and say a lot of things on how my future bla bla.. wwwooooww fly daaammmn high la~ BUUUUT what really means a lot to me HEE is that i know i didnt disappoint those who came to support tho some are second degree friends HA. but from their applause, it's both encouragement, satisfaction and accomplishment. oh. that's 3 haa. LOVE YOU PPLE TO BITS! SO OVERALL.. I ASKED SHA TO SMELL MY LEG AND HE DUN WAN. BAD ass. but...i dun want to be just someone who sings! :)
You said something.... you might not mean it, nor know it will create an impact on us, but yes, you had successfully did it, and i shall say that it will take some time for us to get over it for your negligence in the usage of words. how sad a mistake to commit. :((
This is not a coldwar, i repeat NOT A COLD WAR, just tired of nagging and explaining to u.
Today's session, meant for us to listen and understand, but most importantly, meant for the little ones to learn.
We sat around to give support for the two much appreciated and loved speakers because of their guidance in the past, as well as our gratitude towards them for representing our thoughts and conveying the messages. However it ended off with a pretty ugly note. At least to me.
No worries. One day... i will talk to you personally and let you know what and why. But it's definitely not now. Not now till i get my patience back.
Should i give them a chance after today before i set my judgment on them?i hope so but doubt so. Too many chances, it's time i let the actions seen take the lead over my positive mindset.
Let me tell you one thing... I may not be the one who taught them the most, but for this golden cage, i dare to say i do a lot of things. Not the most, not the only one, but definitely not a free loader and it all comes from a word "dedication".
We really put blames on ourselves on how they become, but i dare to say it comes from the word "inexperience" but DEFINITELY not "irresponsibility" nor "heck-care" attitude. Cos when we learn how to be better, we apply what we learn.
Trying to make us sound guilty... think again. My enthusiasm that has been working endlessly for the past 2 SOLID years for the cage, no matter rain or shine, suddenly just... STOPS. Still wants to contribute more, but in that few minute, it just shut down functioning. Hurting the people around me... bad....
Honestly I KNOW there's a lot of things i wanted to blog lo, but i forgot after a few days of "aiya tmr then blog, can rememer one" hahahahaha. sh*t. the consequences of being too optimistic! alright.... and 0.39% of laziness?
Anyway had our first m-fig performance on Tuesday!! woo! Like the other members, im sure it's something memorable for them too cos after all these while of wants but none was done kind of thing, it's so touching to see our persistence and determination turned into something solid! Perhaps it can be better IM SURE, but at least, we receive response out of our expectation. We tot it will be like.... *cricket sound*.... YAH. hahaha.
WOOO! GOOD JOB GIRLS! even if it's really crickets flying around, we shall still smile alright. STEP BY STEP TOWARDS EXCELLENCE! my primary school tagline. HA! i still remember haix...
We had fun during our training even though halfway we decided to change our dance pieces. I think now we need to meet up more often to have more practice together! HOPEFULLY we can meet up MORE!! *hiak hiak hiak* rroooar!
_loves_
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Finally, our band performance ended on last Wednesday! Dunno why i dun feel as happy as i thought i will be! Feel that i've somehow let my band members down cos you see... i wanted the whole performance to be very engaging, like everyone having fun, but dunno why, as a vocalist i didnt manage to do that as i did when we are having our rehearsal. tsk tsk tsk. very bad!
But overall, i had fun jamming with them man! Now it feels as if something is missing cos no more jamming! Hopefully we have more in future! I'm very grateful to them for the chance they gave me and of course... their hospitality!! Even tho a lot of the times, they are very very nonsense! HA
AND thanks lihui and jamie for coming down all the way. Beatrice too even tho u didnt make it in time but i understand! ;))) hahahha OH AND dancers for coming down to support all the time!!
BAND PERFORMANCE PRACTISE
After our band performance was postponed, we had our next training on last friday. WA Ning finally manage to come over despite her busy schedule!!! thank you thank you ar! and she told us that we have improved a lot, and from her face, you can see she enjoyed it even more than the last time she came la! haa. that's a great encouragement man! thank you thank you!
DANCE TRAINING
Then m-fig had their second training FINALLY also hahaha but our FIRST PERFORMANCE LA! the other time was sp experience but end up only 3 of us can make it. But now all of us can and we are working hard for it! It's like back to old times when we had fun while practising and it's also very encouraging. I heard the other grand seniors had groove training tog, wow... to me, it's so touching! *sob sob* HA. huh? hmm... so ya! WE ALL WORE PURPLE TOO! it's pure CHEMISTRY MAN! i swear!
SUNDAY OUTING
Today, sunday, went ECP with the sdz. So funny you see how some of them had their virgin roller blade try out! hiak hiak hiak. so cute lo you should see man! Will ask uncle to post the video and photos one day! Learned a few technique from ah neh =X. only i can call ah neh ok! you shut up! hahahah HUH? okok so anyway, it rained halfway AND I SOAKED MY BLADE cos we didnt seek shelther but just went back to "base". damn.. kena scoldings from bro for not taking care! heeeeheeee... as usual.
WAVES CONCERT
I think it's becos i'm the waves coordinator last year with xiang, this year somemore advisor, i'm more worried than anybody else becos i see the problems that we commit last time and i dun want this batch to do the same. But i understand that to them, it may not be as gan jiong cos i used to feel that too. It's ALWAYS until you've been thru the thing, you feel the urgency man. NONONO. bu ke yi!!
So i kept close to what they are doing. Me and xiang were quite noisy during the meeting, giving ideas, kinda talked too much. But you understand our excitement right!? It always takes a push to hype up the whole event. But well.. we decided to lay back a lil, no matter what, it's their production this year. For them to get the amount of satisfaction, they should not be pulled by the ear. They have to go thru the sweet and sour of it.
xxx is right. They have been given too much care sometimes, they haven been in a big trouble or met a DAMN BIG obstacles. If we love them, we gotta let them fall damn hard. Cos sometimes, when you fall, you realise the sweetness of it cos you will remember forever and learn from it. It may be the biggest thing they learn. I really hope when they leave SDZ, it's not just the skills that they leave with, but a life experience! THE CLIMAX of all stages *smile*
I'M NOW USING THE LAPTOP AT MAIN PRESS CENTRE! =X feel like going to the toilet! BRB! Aright i'm back! Honestly, AYG has yet to start, but the main press centre has already start to operate, and that explains why i'm already here you seeee. haa zzZzz nothing much to do now, LUCKY THEY ALLOW US TO USE THE LAPTOP if not for the remaining 3 hours, really have no idea what i can do... shall make good use of what's here. As usual, first day here, don't really know what you can do or cannot do. I think need to be e
I saw this old neighbour of mine. Not white-haired, wrinkly old! but OLD NEIGHBOUR who used to play at the blocks together? She bun her hair, neat and tidy, wearing her shop's attire and gave me a warm sincere smile.... i was like.... "woah. is that her?"
Cos you never know how ah lian she looks like in the past man! Long hair, centre parting, and you know some people just have a ah lian look once they behave rather boorish, especially the way she walks and talks! #$%^& tsk tsk tsk. i was traumatise at my age. HAHA but i still hang out with her, cos.. not that bad la.
So it's like a good change for her. So peaceful now~
Then again, my few other friends also changed for the better, and at one moment, you felt how wonderful this whole world is! wow! so stuuupid use so many colours BUT I LIKE!
Never judge anyone man even tho it's human natural reaction... MOST HUMANs not all! haahaa. Dont cha just need these words to push urself sometimes to make sure you aren't seeing this world in a bad way. UH UH :))))
BAND
Band performance on 3rd of June gyea! I gave my first time, as in first band performance to them and it's gonna be exciting!!!!! hohoho!
Have always wanted to form my own band, but WHO'S MY DRUMMER!? MY BASS!? MY GUITARIST!? MY SYNCHRONIZER!!? ahhhhhhhhhh, multi-task..
It's not easy to find them especially when you are being embraced in your dance club.. like oh~ masked people. may be talented but you wont know kind of thing hahah
YEAH! Thanks so muchy muchy to ning for introducing me one! im freaking happy about the whole thing that i have so many ideas flow flow flow like how the whole band's image, logo, etc HA! ok too much.kinda like a dmc student syndrome.
The whole band history and people themselves are already pretty astounding for a hmm.... cheena girl like me. THEY ARE ALL HYBRIDS! can u believe woah. can i be one too? like... neh mind!
ok that's not the main point. They are real nice people. But im still excited. Alright shall not be ambitious. Just concentrate on learning! *chuckle*
*I realise since dunno which performance, i've lost of voice, that i've lost a lil of my faith in performing. It's no longer the "she's good. it makes me feel like being better!", but the "omg.... how how" IT'S BAD!! SUPERWOMAN, the confident cheater bug who can lie to herself damn good! please come back!! grr grr grr!
DANCE
I love dancing, always are. Since young, from an aspired ballerina, whose life changed completely into a sports lover, and still ever changing, till who i am now, continuing what i first pursued to do, to dance... and to continue dancing.
To care about club's matter now is no longer an obligation... it's an interest! I love what i'm doing... cos i see the reason for why im doing. Good enough!
But yet, coming to dance everyday shall never be preoccupied by club's matter.
Cos Dance is suppose to be something you enjoy. It's carefree. And that should be the way. If you are worried about something, settle it, or put it aside. Never bring it alongwhile you are doing something you love :) I live it that way!
The only reason i hated poly, nonono hated sounds too strong a word, dislike poly was because for the past 2 years, 10th May, doesn't seems as unexpectable as before, reason... @#$%^&*()(&^%^&*()_)(*&^%&*() STUDIES!!!!!! eeeee!
It falls on the week that projects started, maybe tests too? That i feel there's no reason to use birthday as an excuse to be absent from any of them. SHEESH! so spoilsport. GRR!
Well.. I always thought i'm someone who don't freaking care whether people celebrate for me, whether i receive prezzies from close ones, i mean i still feel this way now, but when you meet something like the above scenarios, above as in the FIRST 2 para, you just wish there's something to psss SPICE you up yo!!!
Let me tell you what happen! hahahaha... 10th May i have project... until like evening... NEH MIND! then meet up with sha to play ARCADE. oh best! we walk walk walk then got this couple offered us to continue to play the game called "silent hill".. WA SAI! hahahah tot so kind... realise that game:
-not scary
-draggy
-the character coward keep running away
HOW TO KILL!!!?
So for the first time, when i die, i was FREAKING HAPPY I CHEERED!
hahahah then had japanese food at Suki Sushi with mel, ah pui, vince, bin and sha, then uncle came also. :)) THANKS! AND THE BIKER ADDIDAS JACKET! WA LAU! i like! hahaha
THANKS ah jan, xiang, uncle and anne for the SHARK CAP. OMG that's such a attention whore cap. Its mouth can open when i squeeze it!!? HAHAH SO FUNNY!
WORSE PART!!!!
I decided to skip school on monday cos i didnt have enough, WITH the encouragement by uncle hahah! Wanted to meet some of them for skating at east coast follow by WATER SKII!! WAAA dope...
BUT IT RAINS....
watch movie instead, halfway receive a call telling me that there's a graded assessment that day.... need to get MC....
spend 23 bucks to get one FROM A CLINIC!! AHHHHHHH! SO SCREW. i give up. shall not complain. but still.. 17 again is nice HA
I'M NOW YEAR 3!
I'm having the grow-too-fast-cannot-take-it syndrome! CURE ME! AHH
FYP, Internship, PASSING DOWN and growing up!
The 4 processes that i will need to face.
FYP
All the projects and stuffs. I hate it when i have brain block and i can't contribute ideas to the group. I'm the kind who love to discuss until song song cos i will feel a big sense of satisfaction like we are all striving instead of just seeing them dying, like last semester drama! BEST. like hardship is fun! IT IS FUN!.... haaa
INTERNSHIP
I'm so looking forward, so not looking forward to internship. A yes because im contributing to the society! MUAHA rubbish. But ya... doing something you are good at is cool. A no because that means i might be missing dance, missing other good things in life because of a lack of time! but still.. i vote for a yes!
PASSING DOWN
Passing down is something we have been looking forward too to as well as not looking forward to. SO long winded.
Looking forward to because we have been slogging our lives for a year, and it's tiring. But what I know is that everything that i'm doing, i'm not doing for credit, maybe for CCA points HA but mainly for the friends, for the club, to see everyone advance together.. wooooooooooo!
Not looking forward to, the same thing, we have been slogging ourselves for this club and i'm grateful for every single one of them for what they have done. They have already become a part of my life, to suddenly break of this chain is kinda HUH? WHAT THE HELL!!? hahahha
THANKS GUYS! I appreciate each and everyone of you cos you don't do it for the sake of doing it. Sometimes, i can see how much this club meant to you. THANKS FOR BEING ON THE SAME SHIP! :)) We may go through many ups and downs but you guys forgive and forget!
Whenever possible, i will hope to work with you guys again!! *grin* HEE HEE YOU DON'T WANT!!? awww...
NEH BU.
GROWING UP
There's so many things that i need to learn now. How to maintain my GPA.. hahahah! wadever la. growing up isnt a big thing. SKIP!
My aunt confirmed with me, "you serious ar! I'm going to do it!!"
SHA sms-ed me, "You only live life once!"
And so I replied, "AIYA! OK LA OK LA! GO AHEAD!"
Hence... New hair, new experience, new look, i'm FEELING IT~!
hahahaha... tho' some of them said it looks likes like auntie, but aiya ABC must be too fat, too demoralise, alright alright! I'M JUST HAPPY WITH IT! especially when i dance and my hair bounce, OMG... full self-entertainment.
Had very bad back and neck aching. Got my back aching for almost a week since last last week's dance training. Uncle said you will get it once you reach year 3. I wish everyone good luck... GOOD LUCK! haa. But this shows how much we have been chiong-ing man! I got my neck aching because UNCLE played that "ante up (remix)" song that we "krump" to it yesterday so much that i forgot i dun have hair anymore and shouldn't swing my head so hard thinking that it will help moving the hair. OUCH.
Now... i really catch a cold more easily! Being in the lecture room now is like a disadvantage to me. I can no longer be in warmth. BAM! so ass. But i see pple sweat... haix.. enjoyment HA =x
There's a sudden gust of wind outside! My ah gong always take tissue from the public toilets, i think is some elderly syndrome, they always like to collect stuffs, thinking that it will be of use someday, hahahaha, and place it on the shoe rack outside.
So here comes the funny part... My dad open the door and went out...
He got entangled in the tissue paper!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAH! omg what a scene!!
But so creepy, like this was the BIGGEST GUST of wind i experience! OMG! I think was because i got my hair cut, so now the weather turns cooler. WHAT? HOW CAN THEY DO THAT!?
Now i'm cold.
And here comes the rain every 5 minutes... GOSH... can you imagine if it rains ice cubes, and here comes the tycoon, and everything comes alive just because i wrote it!?
WOAH. DRAMA! hehehe.
Writing emotional stuffs, complaining and moaning are just not my bowl of bei bei mian... cup noodle.
I love to share my happiness and my nanny stories on my blog.
So i dislike the fact that sometimes i do those things but i can't deny that... it's normal. :)
Thanks Gavin for meeting me today! I love to know that there are still a friend-who-knows-you/ stand-by-you kind of feeling. Friends are indeed to wish for but not to beg for!
I'm not perfect.
You can wish you have the bestest friends in the world who knows you, click with you, or wish that you have many friends of your kind. But in reality, it's not easy and if you had tried but you realise it's not working, don't beg for them cos if they come, they come, no matter how much you do, if you can't get them to click with you, you can't force! Things might turn sore the more you try. Just be happy to know that you are not alone.
With that, i'm ready to step out of my little pot. The world that i live in for many years, thinking that i have friends all around in the past, who even ask me to take more notice of them, till now, when it seems like the other way round, i shall not be sad :) AT LEAST... i'm not a detestable character? Not that i know of. HAHA.
People around me may take over my little pot, and i may be looking outside wishing when can i in again, but being outside isn't that bad after all. I know what's lacking in me now. I use to have too many friends, i can't equally give them my quality time even thou i thought i really put in effort to build but it's just not enough. So i can't treasure them. Now i know, i shall treasure whoever wishes to be treasured. That's what i learn outside the pot. (it just happen that somebody doesn't need me recently after so many things happen so i shall not hold on ;))
I asked myself 3 questions yesterday (Typed 23 just now, nearly give myself a shock of my life in that split seconds) and maybe you can ask yourself too...
#: When was the last time you are happy for your friend from the bottom of your heart?
This is controversial man. Being happy for a person and be happy for a person are different to me. The latter sounds more... hm....forced? But it does happen many of the times. Cos' she's your friend, you think you should be happy for them? But being happy, is really very beautiful. You don't just smile or laugh, your heart have this weird feeling. It's like a "URK!" ahahah. It's a real sincere thing. Sometimes you even feel like crying. And you start to have thoughts going through you about that person. And something very touching is when you see someone really happy for you (I remember someone telling me that) IT'S FREAKING SWEET and touching. Have you felt that yet?
# What is one thing that you fear of doing it but because you want to overcome it, so you want to do it! (a random question out of the yellow)
It's always great about having a big leap in your life. I'm not talking about your goal. Like i want to be a dancer, but i fear doing freestyle so if i can do freestyle one day.... bla bla bla. What i'm talking is, are you afraid of heights? If you are afraid of heights, if one day you go and play bungy jump, do you feel that ultimate sensation. LIKE OMG. im not scared of anything anymore!! FREAK. But it's also not something like "I HATE SNAILS" so if one day you eat snails.... no that's call nightmare! So for me, bungy jump is something i'm hoping that i will do one day. I'm not afraid of heights, but THIS KIND OF HEIGHTS are devil man. So i want to try that!
# At this VERY POINT of time, what is one thing you want to change?
Myself. No, i don't change myself because of others, i change myself for myself. I change myself so that the thoughts are right, when the thoughts are right, you see things in a better angle, when you see things in a better angle, you are happier. I have self satisfaction when i see things in a beautiful way HA. yeah~
Actually many things are seperated by just one thin line. How thin or thick it is is determine by you. It's between you want or don't want. It's actually very simple. If you want it, YOU DEFINITELY CAN DO IT. It might take a few tries, but it will. It also depends on the objectives of why you want to do it.
Just think about one thing in life that you are freaking unhappy of about a person. Ask yourself, are you going to bear that grudge for 58 YEARS? i love to use numbers, it makes more impact? It's like are you going to be thief for 58 years? woah maybe some does. But what i'm trying to say here is, you have many years to live actually. Short for everything in life but long enough for you to fill your time up. So why use it on stupid things? Sometimes i know you can't control, but don't let that get over you! You cant control how ass that person is or how different that person thinking is compared to you. So if it's like that... LET IT GO :)) instead of thinking how ass that person is, ask yourself how nice that person is.
ALL OF THE ABOVE.. im still trying to learn HAHA. CHEY! HAHAHA
HA here comes another cousin wedding... but this time.. IT'S LOCAL!
It's held at newton hotel, and the couple decided not to go to the ROM but held their vows or so called legal statements at the garden swimming pool.
Everything is kept simple. But as usual, the way the waitress and waiters come in NEVER CHANGES! Always the techno song and come in with the first dish with shining balls. Next time when i get married, i make sure they wear army clothes and march out. Alright maybe not... BUT I WILL WANT DANCE TO BE THE OPENING ITEM!! *grin* hiak hiak hiak
My family were arranged to sit with a bunch of my dad's dancing friends. Now my cousin who got married, her mum (my aunt) always go dancing with my parents and they get to know this BIG bunch of dancing friends who are YOUNG AT HEART even though most are at their 40s and 50s!
REALLY YOUNG AT HEART! I cant beat them. I think they are the once who makes my time at the table so enjoyable. I went with them to the gambling cruise before and be their "photographer". They are all so friendly, so bubbly, crack jokes all the time. NEVER STOPS. GOOD.
Wanted to go genting with them with my parents, BUT I CANT! Can you imagine i actually have such enthusiasm. I just like to sit one side and look at how they talk. A few incidents to share:
1) The shining ball- this uncle call "alibaba" he came over to our table (cos got 2 tables of dancing friends) and gave another uncle his shining ball and they put it in their chest as breast!!? HA
2) Uncle John eats vegetable, they serve him a plate with 2 ducks head and put big vegetables on top and walk towards him like a waitress.
3) The menu book look like the bill book, one of the uncle walk over and ask him to buy the bill.
4) "Alibaba" took the flower that only the family members have and shake hands with other guests when he is a guest himself.
5) All the aunties and uncles run to the other table of dancers and took photo together, shouting freaking loud "HUAT AH!"
WHAT? hahahahah so cute right! i want to be like them when i'm old. So fun.
Nanny said " IT'S NOT TOO LATE TO START YOU 2009 RESOLUTION" hence... i did my resolution for the year. That nanny is me. - Choreograph reggae for waves 14
- Choreograph a hip hop piece
- Get a 3.0 for my Sem1 GPA to further pull my cumulative!!!
- Know 100 songs (get the grip of its tune and hopefully lyrics)
- Take part in at least a dance competition
- Kick my ultimate bad habit (the dunno-dunno-call-what syndrome)
- Maintain a good sleeping habit (toughest! HA)
- Get a job at a music cafe when i'm looking for a part-time job
- Get rid of the clothes i took from the rubbish bin OUTSIDE clubhouse.
- Get her a D.I.Y diary
- Better communication with the close ones around
- BE WHO I AM :))
Nanny says "A person must have a goal, and goals create life. Even though you will die eventually but because you will die eventually, don't waste the chance to aim!"
| Cow over | Mar 19, '09 4:03 AM
for everyone |
Met chipmunk on Friday. Suppose to dance, but we end up watching movie from Robin's Hd - Underworld, and make stupid statement out of it. Had a small good chat and feels real good! Never see each other for so long doesn't lead to anything! :) Broke up my disgusting last week..THANKS XIANG! lub lub. HA! Expose you!!!
As promise, to myself, my cow period of ultimate superwoman fragile mood swing has to end...
For that one week, it's kinda like let-go week. I realize being a sensible person after all has its pros and cons?
The pros- you see things in a more healthy/positive way and life goes on happily!
The cons- it's freaking tiring, cos everytime when something bad happen, we spend that few seconds or moments sorting things out?
So i shall call that week, the cow*.
*Cow - moo~deep and low- a low and depress symptom.
So during the cow, probably the fact that my lazy nature overpowers me, i don't feel like thinking, don't feel like thinking the right way, be sensible, be happy and stuff. What for? When the people around you are f*cking insensible.Can't i just give the very first reaction a normal human being will give? Maybe i should define my definition of insensible during the COW. haaa
NannyLum Dictionary
Insensible: People who just have nothing better to do and goes around making people upset directly/ indirectly... esp to those who did nothing... oh. whatever! stuck up attitude!..
hahah woah!?
During cow, i thinking of my close friends in Secondary school till now a lot, they are so much more mature? or perhaps... simple. Maybe because we know each other, the negative things that each of us do sometimes, we know they are really just joking. We know they aren't like that. So we don't give a sh*t or make a fuss out of it and end up making ourselves feel miserabel.
When we are upset or unhappy about what each other do, we talk things out immediately cos we don't want to delay it any further, playing guessing games with each other and sulking for that one whole week and make it... a cow?oh come on! Life's got many better things to do.
I mean it's true. Isn't that suppose to be how it's like between good friends if you really treasure them?
So that week, anybody who tried to play guessing game with me, THEY DIE. i flare up and i freaking ignore them. I got really upset at home i keep watching tv and sit down there. Even strangers around me, they accidentally push me, i also didnt go "oh sorry" which suppose to be the right way. I got very agitated, i think they damn fat even tho they are skinnier than me *grin* im so ass.
But that week it's over. I know i know i shouldn't compare... Different people, different friends have their own process of friendship they lead them to where they are today. Tho i would really love that kind of friendship, but i understand it's not a universe thing and we got to accept who they are of we care, perhaps, accompany them to that kind of ring. I know i shouldnt diss at fat people im so sorry HAHAHAHAH. erhem. laugh so loud. bad lumlum!
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